Hurt Me Daddy, for I Have Blogged

 Hey all, so I'm groggy and a half right now. Got the flu shot yesterday and it just fried me, haven't had a response this shitty (or good?) since like '14 or '15, ugh, could barely sleep last night. Anyway... I came here to say that I've been working on healing some shit in therapy. Namely, the effects of casual misogyny/queerphobia on  me during my late teens/early 20s. It's one of those things where I didn't take note of how deeply a lot of the commentary sank in until really recently, but it was really fucking insidious. To clarify, this was a period in my life where my friend groups were probably largely male. As high school ended and I went off to college right away (remember when we did that, kids?) my friend group dwindled somewhat, down to all people who identified as men at the time, and then...me. The oddball. Of course looking back now I can see that part of it was because I looked at myself as non-gendered or a non-woman. At the time it was just...

Reminder of my boundaries below! So I want to say that I continue to be wary of this space and of longform blogging in this format. Because I feel like people now have judgmental ideas of whether or not you have the right to keep a blog that is more personalized, that talks about your personal thoughts and feelings on things and stuff, that is subjective. The thing is, I am not here trying to make a case that my feelings are objective scientific facts. I am not out here trying to disseminate harmful shit. I am out here trying to be a human on the internet in a world where we have all turned into mini commercial advertisements. I also don't have inflated ideas about this. If people read this shit, great. If they don't, great. But it's a nice place to be authentic. And also, I'm a grownass fucking adult. I can rant on the internet if I want to, hehe. But you know, people decided they wanted to vilify me when I tried to speak out against a harmful person earlier this summe...

Before I take the plunge here, I invite anyone reading to read my "rules," listed below. I am still figuring out my intentions for this space. I guess it might be able to function more like a process-oriented journal. I do not necessarily think it's going to be "community building." I have tried things like that in many regards and feel that I've failed, repeatedly. I'm not a demagogue or group leader, I've always been kind of a depressed loner type who occasionally attracts others. Not so good at community, but pretty good at navel-gazing. So all that said, please go read the parameters at the bottom of this post. When I want to solicit peoples' input on something specific, I will ask for it. Now, into the bigger part of it.  Lately I've been processing and integrating some MAJOR new info I just found out about my family. I finally just found out about the US-based/Canadian Jewish branches of my family in much deeper detail and for the first...

Wow wow wow! So I am posting here per a Twitter thread that Rob Sheridan shared recently, about going back to blogging like it's 2007. I really would love a place to word/feeling vomit, have a space for nonjudgment, to whine and bitch like I did on LJ (R. pointed out that we probably used LJ like that because we couldn't afford therapy at the time lololol, too true). I am trying to navigate my relationship to my life, promotional stuff, things I give a shit about that I also happen to do for a living...it's complicated right now and oh-so-jumbled together. So I don't want to be super hard-lined about not promoting here, but I'm not really sure how to go about much of any of it at this moment. I think I am going to try to make a Canva graphic stating my boundaries, which will probably generally be: -No unsolicited advice, ever, pleeze. Solicited advice/feedback may happen, so don't worry, if you're the type who loves to tell your friends what to do, lol. -Pra...